oh what a christmas to have the blues

i'm home for christmas. i'm not exactly sure that i'm excited about it yet...
since i started college, christmas hasn't felt the same. i haven't spent months preparing music to perform at church like i did in middle and high school. i haven't decorated the tree with my family. this year i didn't even go with my parents to pick out that tree. something more seems to be missing this year, too which has lessened my christmas spirit a little more.

as happy as i am for my semester to be through, i still wish i could be at school because my friends are there. i tend to be so lonely when i'm home for break.

basically, right now i'm just in this blah mood. but i don't know if this is a blah mood because everyone is leaving and i'm still here or if it is because i've been too distracted for the past 4 months to think about how i really feel and to take care of myself. but again, i'll be keeping myself busy and staying distracted for most of break doing a lot of working. it'll be good.

anyway, that was probably depressing enough. i have a busy week--lots of working and catching up with friends before they leave town. hopefully i can stay cheery and not be so blue.

"And when those blue snowflakes start falling,
That's when those blue memories start calling,
Youll be doin all right, with your Christmas of white,
But I'll have a blue, blue blue blue Christmas"
--Elvis